The hard thing about suicide is it feels only socially appropriate to talk about it if it is in the past tense. I used to feel suicidal. I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts. I’ve experienced that.
Often, when a tragedy of this nature occurs, social media is filled with posts with hotline numbers, pleas to ask for help, and reassurance of the general worth of humanity. This is definitely a great thing. However, as someone who is still in the tides of struggling, I wish more conversations felt safe and possible around this.
I can’t speak for everyone who has struggled with suicidal feelings/thoughts. However, I hope sharing my story can be educational and a helpful conversation starter for others.